Sep 262012
 

Howdy folks!

Okay so yeah I’ve been home from Fitbloggin’ for a few days, but I had to decompress, get back into real life…and mull things over.

Now I can say, wow, Fitbloggin’, I haven’t ever experienced so many different feelings and learned so much all in one place, EVER.

Connecting with online friends to become in person friends . Meeting brand new people and creating new and wonderful friendships.  I met fabulous men and women from all across the globe (here’s looking at you @pinkypie).  I found new blogs to follow, holy cow I think I have at least 20 new blogs in my reader, I’m so excited to keep up with everyone!

I learned new tools, like using YouTube for vlogging-watch out folks, I will post some videos now! (thank you Sarah Dussault).  A new friend, @skinnyemmie, presented on the ins and outs of driving traffic to blogs with social media.

Tara (@tidbits_of_tara) and Meegan (@redstar5) helped us all share stories and support each other’s journeys…whether that was weight loss, maintenance, feeling like we belong, anxiety, depression, motivation or just showing love for one another by leading a discussion on “When You Have A Lot To Lose

I collected lots of swag..whoa, so much.  I left for Baltimore with a full size suitcase only half packed (I had been warned), I came home with a 51 lb, packed full suitcase, plus a stuffed full carryon AND a yoga mat from NatureMade slung over my shoulder!!!

Reebok, McCormick Spices for Health, Weight Watcher’s Cheese, Unilever Spreads Good to Know, Jump Sport Fitness, Federation of Quebec Maple Syrup Producers, Florida Grapefruit, Refuel Got Chocolate Milk, Beef Checkoff, Nature Made, American Cancer Society, DetermiNation, Eggland’s Best, Popchips, SoyJoy, puravit.body, fitmixer, BistroMD, ZonePerfect, attune foods, and biPro

 

Of all the swag though…my favorite:  Reebok Realflex shoes

Reebok Realflex crossfit shoes

 

During the conference I did a crossfit workout and a trampoline workout in these shoes. When I came home I walked around downtown Minneapolis all day, too. These babies feel awesome….I’m pretty sure I’ll buy the running version of them for regular running use.  This model was described to me as a cross-training shoe and a saw lots of Fitbloggers running the Fitbloggin 5K in them on Sunday morning, but I probably wouldn’t run further than that (in my opinion only) in this particular shoe vs. a running model.  My foot, personally, needs more support for running more than 3 miles.  Walking and cross training though, these are the BOMB.

On a more personal note, this weekend I was kinda had this weird feeling, like maybe my story and my journey weren’t good enough, or tough enough to fit in with the other folks there.  So many tough stories of losing over 200 lbs, car accidents, spinal injuries, family deaths, eating disorders….and these amazing people overcoming them, coming through them, achieving their goals.  I kinda felt like a fraud….like..well..umm..nothing really bad happened to me….I was just overweight cause I ate too much and was lazy….yeah…that’s me.  Nothing traumatic to blame or overcome or learn from…just, yup…lazy and ate too much.  I was kinda feeling bad about that, like who am I to be here, all proud of myself, when I really haven’t done anything except count calories, exercise and lose weight.

I expressed how I was feeling like a faker to Robby(@FatGirlVsWorld). I told her how I felt like I don’t have a reason for being overweight, I don’t have a story…and she explained to me….that I do, “I just need to become more self-aware”. She went on to say, “As you become more confident & self-aware, you will learn your story, the reasons why, and you will become confident & strong.” She was also helping me feel better about how I know, this time, as I become more self-aware, that I will keep the weight off…because I will know myself better than before.

I want to make sure and thank Robby for being so strong, rational, reasonable and motivational to not only me, but to the many men and women she sat down and had a heart-to-heart with over the weekend, and the people she hugged, patted on the back, rang a bell for, shared a #GoTheDist wristband with, and overall encouraged to be awesome….because she loves us…..WE LOVE YOU, TOO LADY!

Alright, that’s it for now, phew…

<3 Merbear

Jun 202012
 

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You know how I know?

Yesterday was an extremely stressful day…among other things I’m dealing with a short sale of a house, planning my financial future, duathlon training, wedding planning and career building through an internship. Oh, I’m also having to run errands related to switching banks…kinda stressful til everything is switched.

Anyway after phone calls with Freddie Mac, emails and appointment setting with lawyers, emails negotiating with wedding vendors, and running across downtown during my lunch break…..I was ready to pull my hair out.

First thought in my head was to get “just a small” Dairy Queen treat….fortunately my warning buzzers went off…hmm this not a good choice. So, instead I got an iced tea and scrambled back to my desk at work.

Then, I knew exactly what I needed…to get outside, enjoy sunshine, spend time with a friend, and RUN. I immediately sent out an APB to my running buddies via email and Twitter. @kellybeeeee my friend who just ran the Grandma’s Marathon offered to run with me while she did her first shakeout run after the race! Woohoo! Lucky meeee!

Kelly warned me she didn’t know how her body would respond and I told her I’d do whatever, even if it ended up being walking. Well, the run around Lake Calhoun was awesome for both of us. She kept her tired legs going around the lake in intervals and I got to hear about the marathon, vent a little, gush about wedding planning, and work out the anxiety built up in me with some smiles, friendship and endorphins!

Yay for new lifestyle choices, yay for running, yay for friends!

<3 Merbear