Feb 102014
 

Its late on my first full day here in Cancun and you might wonder why the heck am I blogging? Well, its not like I’m a daily or even weekly blogger anymore, I blog when I’m inspired by something to talk about. Tonight, I am inspired to talk about my progress with The Emily Program and how it has taken a huge chunk of anxiety out of my life. I know I’ve already talked about how much better my anxiety and my eating habits are, but holy cow I can really tell now that I’m on vacation.

When we are in our day to day life at home there are healthy decisions that need to be made all day….what to eat, what to wear, what’s on my schedule today, feed the cats, feed the husband (teehee), hit the showers, scheduled exercise, blah blah blah.

But, here in Cancun at an all-inclusive resort, everything is in slow-mo….hardly any decisions and I can take my time to make them, plus they aren’t that hard…..pina colada or a mojito? Heehee

In the past, I would have really noticed my tendency towards compulsive eating and my anxiety when on vacation. I would have been saying to myself all the time, “Well, I’m on vacation I might as well eat this and this and this and that and that and that……..” which would trigger guilt and anxiety afterwards OR I might have been on the other side, before I learned intuitive eating, and I could on vacation while on a “diet” Oy…that would have sucked, there are so many wonderful foods here…fresh tropical fruits, fun drinks, outstanding traditional style tacos, room service, gourmet restaurants in the hotel etc etc……being on a “diet” would have thrown my darn anxiety off the charts.

But after today, I feel fantastic.  I had more than your average number of adult beverages on the beach today, not that I was counting.  We ate every few hours when we were hungry, a nosh of tacos here, a bit of fruit there, some happy hour veggies and dip, some yummy salad and steak for dinner…..no worries, no woes, just yummy fuel on a magnificent day at the beach.

Small aside…I was finally able to go back to regular exercise after 3 months of physical therapy. I’m happy to say that after 1 month of Megan K’s Fit Body Boot Camp I’m down 3 inches off my body. No diet food, just 3-5 days a week of 30 minute boot camp sessions and intuitive eating with the instruction of my dietitian at the Emily Program (its not a food plan or a diet) 🙂 I know some people progress faster, but this is just perfect for me 🙂

<3

Merbear

Jul 022013
 

Hi everybody! Readers old and new! I have so much to say about Fitbloggin’ 13 but I think I”m going to just start with a photo blog of my activities and people that I spent time with.  Just to organize my thoughts!  I also plan to talk about the swag I brought home and even a prize that I won coming up in the next week or so.  I have to get that all organized in my head!

Fitbloggin’ is so much action, fun days of learning, loving, feeling, and moving….I’m so impressed by the bloggers who did live blogs or posted blogs almost every day that they were at the conference, I bow down to them!!  For me, I’m not that fast, I need to process. So let’s start with my photos!

Thursday: (Day 1): Flew into Portland and got on a bus to head up to Trout Lake Farm for a tour with Nutrilite, ending the day with dancing!

 

Heading to Fitbloggin'13

Heading to Fitbloggin’13

 

 

Liz & I in front of Multnomah Falls

Liz & I in front of Multnomah Falls

Multnomah Falls from down below

Multnomah Falls from down below

IMG_20130627_133252_294

Railroad Bridge Over Multnomah Creek

View of the high bridge at Multnomah Falls

View of the high bridge at Multnomah Falls

 

On the bus with Liz from our hotel to Trout Lake Farm with Nutrilite!

On the bus with Liz from our hotel to Trout Lake Farm with Nutrilite!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Multnomah Falls from the high bridge

Multnomah Falls from the high bridge

Railroad Bridge Over Multnomah Creek

 

Tractor driven by GPS, more efficient!

Tractor driven by GPS, more efficient!

Beautiful Vistas at Trout Lake Farm

Beautiful Vistas at Trout Lake Farm

Some Nutrilite Crops

Some Nutrilite Crops

Lemon Balm, smelled heavenly

Lemon Balm, smelled heavenly

Icelandic horses raised in Trout Lake near the Nutrilite farm

Icelandic horses raised in Trout Lake near the Nutrilite farm

myselfleahkenliedavid

Myself, Leah, Kenlie & David out dancing!

Friday – Checking out the expo, hitting up Deschutes Brewery for dinner, and mingling at Ignite Fitness in the evening

Liz trying out Total Body!

Liz trying out Total Body!

 

Leah workin' it!

Leah workin’ it!

 

A new friend Dani & I at Deschutes Brewery for dinner

A new friend Dani & I at Deschutes Brewery for dinner

 

 

Renee and I at Deschutes!

Renee and I at Deschutes!

Dani and I enjoying a local brew

Dani and I enjoying a local brew

 

 

Liz singing karaoke!

Liz singing karaoke!

 Saturday visiting VooDoo Doughnut, the Closing Reception and Sunday morning

VooDoo Doughnut

VooDoo Doughnut

Sue and I looking pretty

Sue and I looking pretty

Sam, myself, Heather & Christine

Sam, myself, Heather & Christine

 

 

 

 

Cynthia and I

Cynthia and I

Renee and I looking pretty!

Renee and I looking pretty!

Emmie and I

Emmie and I

 

 

 

Jun 032013
 
Team Flower Power

Relay Team Flower Power!

 

Yesterday I ran on a 4 person relay team for the Minneapolis Marathon and it was fantastic!  My leg of the relay was 5.1 miles and I ran at a 13:19 pace, which is the fastest I have done since hurting my back 3 weeks ago and the LONGEST DISTANCE I have run since last September when I did a 10K.

I get such a great rush from wanting to do the best I can for my team, just the whole race atmosphere…a bunch of other people also trying to do their best AND tons of support and cheers, and  just looking forward to celebrating at the end!!!

My leg was so pretty…I ran on streets, walking paths, bridges and a brick road.  There were a couple hills, which I chose to walk up instead of run…I think that helped me keep my pace versus hurt me.  I took a couple walking breaks towards the end while watching my overall pace so I’d only lose a few seconds..which I instantly regained once I started running again (30 seconds of recovery is sometimes all we need to keep going strong!)

 

Hitching A Ride

Hitching a Ride from Relay Exchange 1 to 2!

My team overall did a fantastic job as well.  We all came in faster than our predicted paces AND we finished the marathon 26 minutes sooner than we thought we would, beating our record from last year! 🙂

We were all feeling a bit nervous about our run this year since we haven’t been able to dedicate as much time to training as we did last year.  Despite the hiccups in training, we all got our finishers medals and were super proud of ourselves at the end of the day.

I just love that rush of pride and joy of accomplishment at the end of a race and its 1 million times better when you did it with a team!

Not only were RUNNERS part of our team though, we had good friends Kris and Corryn providing tremendous support. We didn’t have to worry about taking relay shuttles, riding the light rail, parking our own cars, or even checking/lugging our gear around.

I truly hope this kicks of a fantastic rest of the summer and into fall running streak 🙂 I’m going to keep doing lots of stretching before and after races and I’ll be kicking up my cross-training, too!  I’m looking forward to getting my pace back to where it was early in the year AND to improving even more!

My next race is a 5K, its the Color Run here in the Twin Cities in July and I’m very much looking forward to it!

Oh, and as an update with my Emily Program treatment…I have been feeling much more confident with myself and my choices…its a slow process, but I feel myself getting better.  Positive attitude, which is enhanced by working out helps!! 🙂

<3 Merbear

 

Some days, you just have to go with the flow..

 Basics, fun, lifestyle, support, Team REFUEL  Comments Off on Some days, you just have to go with the flow..
Oct 162012
 

 

First…Hello out there Popchips winner..I haven’t heard from you yet! Can you post in a comment here if for some reason I missed your email?? Otherwise, I’m drawing again this week!

Second….vote ALL month for me!!  I NEED YOUR VOTES!  I submitted a video sharing what my After workout ritual is and how I refuel with lowfat chocolate milk and now have the chance to get sponsored on Team REFUEL! Check out my After video to VOTE FOR ME! If it earns the most votes at the end of the month, I’ll be the next sponsored athlete of Team REFUEL and have a chance to star in my own “got chocolate milk?” ad! And it’s all for a good cause. For every vote cast, REFUEL will donate $1 to the Challenged Athletes Foundation. Thanks

SEE MY VIDEO AND VOTE HERE! 

Swinging at the Park

Its the little things

I woke up this morning and I didn’t want to do anything. I was stuck by being po’ed at not losing weight or even maintaining over the weekend. Yes, I had some fun at the Zombie Pub Crawl…totally worth it…

Ryan & I are dressed as zombies

RAWRR BRAAINS!

 

…..but I still kinda felt like I was paralyzed…I couldn’t move on with my day, because I couldn’t decide if I was going to go to Slimgenics and face the music of an official weigh in (after a week of not going)…I stayed in bed and read Twitter, read about jobs, applied for jobs (still looking for some copywriting contracts folks!)….looked at Facebook…then….called my mom….

…yup, calling mom works 🙂  She invited me out on a walk around the lake with her and some homemade mom-style lunch beforehand.  Perfect! It got me something specific to go do and to get my juices flowing! While I was over at my parents’ house I got a voicemail from Slimgenics encouraging me to come in, offering some strategies to stay on track and some Halloween tips. I then planned to go today…but found out from mom that my niece would be spending the evening. I jumped at the chance to hang out with her….thus…swinging at the park and a big smile on my face.

I needed that.

Mom time, adorable niece time…swinging on the swings time..

Know what I mean?

<3 Merbear

 

 

Oct 122012
 

Tonight I tweeted out that I felt another whiny blog post coming on and my awesome friends reached out to me.

So instead I want to talk about how important feeling and getting out your feelings can be.

If I hadn’t have shared how I was feeling, Dawn wouldn’t have asked me what was up. Reaching out and telling her & the Twitterverse that I felt like a failure for gaining the weight back that I lost last week and that I was fearing more failure this weekend, empowered me to be open to solving the problem.

Dawn, Liz and other friends tweeted and messaged me that tomorrow is a new day, to focus on what I’d important, get a new start, make new decisions. They are so right. I needed to hear that my guilt about gaining and wanting to sabotage another day are in my head and not that messed up or unsolvable.

Saturday, here in the twin cities, is the Zombie Pub Crawl. I was worried that crawling from bar to bar with my friends would just be way too tempting, after the disappointing week weight wise I’ve had, to not just give in and eat and drink whatever I choose. But, its not true, my supportive friends helped me see that there’s the fun of dressing like a zombie, spending the evening being silly with my friends, hearing bands, dancing, rides and karaoke to look forward to.

I’m in control, I know this now. I’m not saying I won’t have a beer or two, or some special zombie treat. I just don’t have a reason to be worried about it anymore. The night is mine!

Thank you friends, you know who you are, vocal or not this particular evening you are all in my head, cheering for my success.

Oh and P.S. For the first time ever I bought a regular sized, kinda naughty, Halloween costume! Yess!

Merbear

Popchips Contest Winner & Norwex Party on Saturday!

 awesome, contests, Food, foodie, friends, fun, lifestyle, popchips, weekend  Comments Off on Popchips Contest Winner & Norwex Party on Saturday!
Oct 052012
 

The Popchips winner!!

a Rafflecopter giveaway

 

Second…

I’m having a Norwex party tomorrow folks 🙂  If you are in Minnesota and are free around 3pm….come! Bring a friend and get a free gift! I love meeting new locals. I made pumpkin bread, pumpkin whoopie pies, and I’ll have a key lime cheeseball, you know you want to come!!! Food and SCIENCE…Norwex is uber geeky cool cleaning stuff!

I went to a Norwex party, was awed by how well the products work! I am excited to not go through rolls and rolls of paper towels and napkins. To not have to keep stocking up on sponges, wipes and cleaners. You have to see how this stuff works!
If you can’t come or just want to preview…check out my friend Anna Berend’s Norwex page….call her or I with questions or orders towards my party if you wish! http://www.annaberend.norwex.biz/

Bring a friend for a free gift! Drop me a note here if you’re bringing someone 🙂

Norwex is committed to radically reducing the use of chemicals in personal care and cleaning to promote health. More than ever we feel the need to emphasize the positive environmental impact of reducing chemical use.
During the past several hundred years, human activity has significantly altered our global environment, and the negative effects of this are becoming alarmingly clear. No longer can we ignore the warning signs from nature. This trend can be changed if we all work together and take honest responsibility for our planet. It is a fact; household pollutants have a profound impact on our environment.
A radical reduction in the use of chemicals is an important step to improve the health of our planet and our quality of life.
The Norwex corporate vision for our products reaches far beyond the limited horizon of just making a profit; we are striving for a better quality of life for present and future generations. Our deep central theme is reverence for the value and beauty of all life on a healthy planet. Join us in our effort to improve quality of life in a profound way!
Sep 262012
 

Howdy folks!

Okay so yeah I’ve been home from Fitbloggin’ for a few days, but I had to decompress, get back into real life…and mull things over.

Now I can say, wow, Fitbloggin’, I haven’t ever experienced so many different feelings and learned so much all in one place, EVER.

Connecting with online friends to become in person friends . Meeting brand new people and creating new and wonderful friendships.  I met fabulous men and women from all across the globe (here’s looking at you @pinkypie).  I found new blogs to follow, holy cow I think I have at least 20 new blogs in my reader, I’m so excited to keep up with everyone!

I learned new tools, like using YouTube for vlogging-watch out folks, I will post some videos now! (thank you Sarah Dussault).  A new friend, @skinnyemmie, presented on the ins and outs of driving traffic to blogs with social media.

Tara (@tidbits_of_tara) and Meegan (@redstar5) helped us all share stories and support each other’s journeys…whether that was weight loss, maintenance, feeling like we belong, anxiety, depression, motivation or just showing love for one another by leading a discussion on “When You Have A Lot To Lose

I collected lots of swag..whoa, so much.  I left for Baltimore with a full size suitcase only half packed (I had been warned), I came home with a 51 lb, packed full suitcase, plus a stuffed full carryon AND a yoga mat from NatureMade slung over my shoulder!!!

Reebok, McCormick Spices for Health, Weight Watcher’s Cheese, Unilever Spreads Good to Know, Jump Sport Fitness, Federation of Quebec Maple Syrup Producers, Florida Grapefruit, Refuel Got Chocolate Milk, Beef Checkoff, Nature Made, American Cancer Society, DetermiNation, Eggland’s Best, Popchips, SoyJoy, puravit.body, fitmixer, BistroMD, ZonePerfect, attune foods, and biPro

 

Of all the swag though…my favorite:  Reebok Realflex shoes

Reebok Realflex crossfit shoes

 

During the conference I did a crossfit workout and a trampoline workout in these shoes. When I came home I walked around downtown Minneapolis all day, too. These babies feel awesome….I’m pretty sure I’ll buy the running version of them for regular running use.  This model was described to me as a cross-training shoe and a saw lots of Fitbloggers running the Fitbloggin 5K in them on Sunday morning, but I probably wouldn’t run further than that (in my opinion only) in this particular shoe vs. a running model.  My foot, personally, needs more support for running more than 3 miles.  Walking and cross training though, these are the BOMB.

On a more personal note, this weekend I was kinda had this weird feeling, like maybe my story and my journey weren’t good enough, or tough enough to fit in with the other folks there.  So many tough stories of losing over 200 lbs, car accidents, spinal injuries, family deaths, eating disorders….and these amazing people overcoming them, coming through them, achieving their goals.  I kinda felt like a fraud….like..well..umm..nothing really bad happened to me….I was just overweight cause I ate too much and was lazy….yeah…that’s me.  Nothing traumatic to blame or overcome or learn from…just, yup…lazy and ate too much.  I was kinda feeling bad about that, like who am I to be here, all proud of myself, when I really haven’t done anything except count calories, exercise and lose weight.

I expressed how I was feeling like a faker to Robby(@FatGirlVsWorld). I told her how I felt like I don’t have a reason for being overweight, I don’t have a story…and she explained to me….that I do, “I just need to become more self-aware”. She went on to say, “As you become more confident & self-aware, you will learn your story, the reasons why, and you will become confident & strong.” She was also helping me feel better about how I know, this time, as I become more self-aware, that I will keep the weight off…because I will know myself better than before.

I want to make sure and thank Robby for being so strong, rational, reasonable and motivational to not only me, but to the many men and women she sat down and had a heart-to-heart with over the weekend, and the people she hugged, patted on the back, rang a bell for, shared a #GoTheDist wristband with, and overall encouraged to be awesome….because she loves us…..WE LOVE YOU, TOO LADY!

Alright, that’s it for now, phew…

<3 Merbear

Sep 192012
 

 

Oh my gosh, oh my gosh, I am soo pumped!  I get to finally meet so many bloggers I enjoy reading in person. I get to learn new workouts, get blogging tips, taste new foods, try new products! Holy cow this is going to be so awesome! I’ve also never been to Baltimore, let alone Maryland…so a new state to add to my dossier! The Inner Harbor is going to be very cool.

I will be tweeting, posting on instagram and on Facebook while I’m gone, I’m not sure if I’ll have time to blog while I’m there, but I’ll definitely write it up after!

Check out the sponsors on this page:

Reebok, McCormick, Weight Watcher’s Cheese, I Can’t Believe its Not Butter/Country Crock, JumpSport Fitness Trampoline, Federation of Quebec Maple Syrup Produces, Florida Grapefruit, Refuel Got Chocolate Milk?, The Beef Checkoff, Nature Made, The American Cancer Society, DetermiNation, Eggland’s Best, SoyJoy, puravit.body, fitmixer, BistroMD, ZonePerfect, AttuneFoods, biPro and Anchor Bay!

The event starts on Thursday night with badge decorating, a mixer and a comedian!

Friday will be a whole day of workouts  including yoga and a WOD from Crossfit (freaked out to try, but I am!). I’m also going to hit up a session on YouTube and adding video to blogs, so watch out for some vlogs from me soon!

Friday night, one of my favorite organizations, Ignite!, has put together an Ignite! Fitness presentation made up of attendees who submitted their sessions…I love Ignite presentations, this is gonna rock!

Saturday morning will start of with BOUNCE camp! A trampoline workout, how fun is that??? Also going to learn some ZUMBA for the first time ever, I think I’m going to love it.

I’m especially looking forward to hearing from Tara Martin and Meegan Dowe: When you have a lot to lose. I love their blogs, I love talking to them on Twitter, I cannot wait to experience their loveliness. If you want to follow their blogs, too..here they are:

Tara: A Life Changing Journey 

Meegan: Redstar5 – A Work in Progress

Finally, I will be getting up early, on the last day, Sunday morning for a Fitblggin’12 5K!  Running with people who have been inspiring me to run, be fit, eat well,  and love myself?? Umm..YES!!

So, that’s that for now!!  I hope those of you attending Fitbloggin’12 will PLEASE come find me so we can connect and share the love! 🙂

Tweet at me! MerbearMN

<3 Merbear

Aug 272012
 

Wow, such an amazing experience. I’m proud of all my races…but seriously, A Duathlon…I truly feel like an athlete for the first time. I’m now super motivated to keep improving not only my running but my “athlete” status. I love Duathlons!

My friends from the Minneapolis Duathlon

So, here’s my results from Team Ortho:

Run1 Time: 37:55 Pace: 12:13 min/mi

TRN1 Time: 4:35

Bike Time: 1:10:39 Pace: 12.7 MPH

TRN2 Time: 4:03

Run Time:41:05 Pace: 13:18 min/mi

With a total time of: 2 hours 38 minutes.

VS. what my Garmin told me:

Summary Time: 2:38:28.5 Dist: 22.68 Avg Pace: 6:59

Run 1 Time: 37:08.3 Dist: 3.17 Avg Pace: 11:42

Trn1 Time: 5:39.3

Bike Time: 1:10:12.5 Dist: 15.96 Avg Pace: 4:24

Trn 2 Time: 4:12.7

Run 2 Time: 41:15.7 Dist: 3.14 Avg Pace: 13:09

Running in the Minneapolis Duathlon

Biking in the Minneapolis Duathlon

I’m a little disturbed that I had myself running a lot faster on my Garmin, almost a PR, than the Team Ortho folks timed me chip time. One thing I noticed though, my chip time/gun time was the same when I switched back and forth between Team Ortho results, hmm. But I’m gonna go with my Garmin, fo sho! If I was trying to win a Team Ortho race I’d worry, but I’m not, I’m just there to do my best!

Not so bad for my first Duathlon ever! I rarely run 10K, and the fact that I *did it* with a 15 mile rolling hills bike ride in the middle, just feels so AMAZING! I want to kick this race’s butt next year!!

Coming up I have the Women Rock 10K on Saturday, very excited to see how I do on a 10K that doesn’t have a bike ride in the middle, haha! I’m going to do a few runs to see if I can’t improve my pace a bit this week.

I’m also thinking I’m going to see if I can earn enough volunteer credit with Team Ortho to upgrade my Monster Dash 5K to the 10 miler…I really think between now and the end of October I can do it!

Who else raced this weekend? How’d it go? What do you think of 10 mile races?

Jun 172012
 

Alright running shoes……

Meet biking jersey and biking shorts…..   

Now that I’m done with the Minneapolis Marathon Relay I am elated to #1 FIT into my old bike shorts and #2 start training for the Minneapolis Duathlon on Sunday, August 26th!

The Du is a 5K, an 18 mile bike ride, then another 5K.   My friend Kelly, who just finished the GRANDMA’S MARATHON this weekend will be riding in the Du as a veteran. I also have some other friends that are running/biking for the first time like me! I’m super excited for what is supposed to be a fun event.

But, what I’m MORE excited for is to mix in BIKING with my running. Since the running is 6.2 miles total, which I have experience with…(crazy that I can say that!)..since I did the Get Lucky 7K and my portion of the Minneapolis Marathon was 5.5 miles….I can do maintenance on the running front and really get into re-honing my biking skillz.

MS 150 2009

Now, why do I say “re”honing..(as if that’s a word)…because I used to be an AVID biker.  Notice the blue jersey I’m wearing in the 2nd picture?  That’s a National Multiple Sclerosis Society Lifetime Rider jersey. That means that I participated in MS rides for at least 7 years.  Which I did…7 years in a row I did the MS-150 in Minnesota. Which is 2 days, 150 miles of bike riding. I stopped for a couple reasons, #1 my team broke up and #2 my bike was stolen 🙁

Last year I got a new bike and so did my fiancee (teehee, love saying that)…and now I can USE IT!

My first real bike ride back in the saddle is today…with my dad for Father’s Day…we’re going to ride the Greenway to Lake Calhoun…I’m really looking forward to it!

So be prepared to see my stats on Dailymile include running AND biking.

A few other tidbits..

….I’m back full force on my Slimgenics…I didn’t really stop doing it, I just let a few non-plan foods slip in during my engagement and birthday celebrations (only a few days)….I’m down 46 lbs and counting….I want to lose a total of 65 for now (based on how I feel as I get there)…so 19 left!!

In another post I’ll show you the cute new outfits I got from Ann Taylor Loft, I’m so proud to be a size 12 and a Medium there! My favorite store (I kid you not!) It had been so long since I could shop there that my store credit card had deactivated…but now…I’m going to be a regular customer. I used to buy lots of capris and tops from them…but, for the first time in my life…I *love* skirts and dresses! So, watch out world…cute Merbear is coming ‘atcha!

<3 Merbear