Yesterday was a doozy of a day and I think I have a few more months of doozy days to come. Lots of stress being added to my personal life, thank goodness I have a place to live, food on my plate and family and friends who love me. I’m especially most thankful for Ryan, who is extremely supportive and comforting, that will help me keep my head above water.
But, what else helped me last night? My workout! I won’t skip a workout just because I’m feeling like a black cloud is above my head. I told myself I’d go to my trainer appointment, do everything she said, and try the best not to have a big frown on my face or a furrow in my brow. My trainer, noticing I wasn’t my usual smiley self asked me what was up and I told her a little but also let her know that it will not affect my workout. I just put everything I had into thinking about each move, making sure my form was right, lifting as much as I could.
As my workout continued, as I started to sweat out the toxins of the day and I guess the ones in my head, as my muscles were pushing and hurting, I was able to focus on me and my body and my effort. By the end of weight lifting I was feeling like a weight was lifted (see what I did there?) off my my shoulders, at least for the time being.
I went on to do my Week 1 Day 3 run for Bridge to 10K, I ran four 10 minute intervals, for a total of 53 minutes on the treadmill. I had to focus on my legs, on my thirst, on my sweat, on the minutes done and the minutes coming up. I glanced at my phone once in awhile to see what phase I was in, I glanced up at the TVs to see what was going on. I looked around to see Ryan speaking to the training manager and smiled, I put my head down and pushed forward….all about me.
…..I felt strong, I felt in control, I felt….better
My mind is clearer, I feel that I can handle this, I will just go through step by step. I will tighten my budget, spend more quality time with Ryan, my family and friends. Life will be okay, it’ll just be tough for awhile.
I wanted to eat a big huge bowl of ice cream with chocolate chips, chocolate syrup and sprinkles last night….but I didn’t..I had a Skinny Cow cup and a mug of diet rootbeer that I sipped slowly, it made me feel good to lay my head down in bed and know that I stayed in my calories, on my plan…and that I’m a workout rockstar.
…thank you for the cuddles Ryan 🙂
Thank you for reading all of you, I hope you found my story an asset to your own journey, if you can exercise, do it…..your body and mind will thank you.